crossing the turfs of final year

after 3 years of smiles, jokes, laughter, gief, parties, nightouts and modicum of studies, we are on verge of completing this unforgetable days of engineering.... This is final year and after that, the way is still blurred. As i m not a prodigy or not an assidious towards studies, so m still in catch-22 for what to do.
Catching the trend, i decided to prepare for cat. In initial days of final fantasy, i.e. final year, i started with pace for cat and bunked college nearly everyday. there were regular complains from teachers for short attendence and i performed worst ever in tests. That time i had a fervour towards cat. I was in abyss of aptitude prepration, but in the corner of my heart, i had a panic of depletion in my technical knowledge, that was already not in pleothra. But i least cared for semister studies.
Though i wanna to be at zenith, i myself knew that am not eligible for that.. I was not at all confidence on my skills and my carriculam record is not at all impressive. I was on impasse of what to do. If i could crack the CAT, i would be almost impossible to get through GD and PI. In spite of this agony, i was looking stright forward toward my goal. I dried my monsoon, i burnt my joys, i turned my parties to solitary malencholy moments for my target
But at the same time, i was also submerged in the overflooding preasure of project and training presentation. These all were incresing my tension and B.P. level and decreasing my testosterone level. Though i was peparing intensly, i was ot gettting satisfaction due to my piling load. in mid sept , i got rid of my seminar and got appreciation from my professor. Meantime i booked slot for my CAT exam on 30th nov, delhi